#365daysofyoga - WEEK 29

Well, I'm pregnant. After 8 happy years of making our way in life, nature has decided that Josh and I are suitable to have a child. To be honest, I never dreamt of a white wedding dress, saw myself as a "scientist-going-alone-into-the jungle-to study rare plant" type and never really saw myself bringing a child in for the ride. This doesn't mean that I didn't contemplate on how much joy and growth parenthood brings, or how much I love spending holidays with a full house, or how I may wake up on my 50th birthday and regret not having a kid.

The day I took the test that showed two lines I found myself in shock and disbelief. I was working out like crazy and enjoying my summer with all that comes to mind with that. I waited a whole day before telling Josh. Part of me wanted to throw him a big surprise. a) COVID imposed its limitations, b) turns out I'm not that creative when it comes to parties, c) keeping such big news from him was killing me.

I went for a safe and classic route. I made him a flower arrangement and hid the test inside it. His reaction was absolutely priceless and everything I was hoping for - going from nervous joking, to disbelief to hugging me and laughing happily.

It's been a very lucky ride so far. I've not experienced the infamous morning sickness at least not to the extend that some do. I was able to continue moving around adjusting to new shapes and forms. And before I knew it, we entered month 6. Getting comfortable for the night has been a challenge especially with two cats still trying to cuddle. It was slightly disheartening to attempt to put on pants or even some shirts - I can recall the first time trying to put on my blue pants and barely closing the button to straight up keeping the winter pants unzipped when we went showshoeing. And I know the baby is going to pick up growing pace which means full on maternity cloths and more physical limitations.

It's a lot to take in: from new level of responsibility to decision making, from choosing a crib to making a registry, from learning all the things that can go wrong to reminding myself to stay positive, from contemplating on safety to staying on the voice of the reason side... How does one not explode with all this?

Not to pounder too much on that, I'm grateful for being able to do this with a loving and involved partner, for being surrounded by an amazing family and village of friends and support. I'm thankful for the knowledge and experience we are able to access to help us stay informed. And I'm overjoyed that a beautiful soul has chosen me to guide him into this world. Son, we can't wait to meet you and gosh do I love you already!